As blogged at Thoroughly Disordered yesterday, I need to make some serious lifestyle changes. I chose not to put it all here on my main blog because I felt that it didn’t really belong, but it’s probably still worth a read to anybody with food/alcohol issues.
Because I have epilepsy, some of the more serious issues (such as alcohol consumption, which has deep roots in psychological trauma as a young adult) need to be monitored and handled carefully. Yesterday I made a start with that, and I never want to see that nasty place again.
However, there are small changes I can make here and there. I could start by actually clambering out of my pyjamas and getting dressed even if I don’t have to go anywhere. I could start taking short walks around the block to recover my confidence when out and about.
Perhaps I can start by having more of this
and less of this
and perhaps swap the tea up and the wine down on a gradual basis. That way my body won’t go into sudden withdrawal, causing a potentially fatal siezure.
It was suggested yesterday that D and I find time to go out for lunch and a wind down at least once a month. I like this idea. There’s a lovely country pub not far from us that serves fabulous meals – and to do this on occasion would help to cement it into my head that wine goes with food and is not supposed to be drank on its own unless it’s for a nightcap.
I think that the most important thing I can do is eat. Especially breakfast. Even if I can eat nothing else all day (initially) I have found that eating breakfast makes me less likely to want to drink too early in the day.
I am not a Slayer. Neither am I an Avenger, an X-Man or any other type of superhero. My demons are not fictional and I have to fight them mentally rather than with a stake or a fist or a metal suit. The monsters and villains I face are all in my head.
I cannot blame epilepsy for everything. A disability is not an excuse to let yourself go and stop caring about your general health.
Many people with epilepsy – and other disabilities – slide into depression and alcohol abuse. You can beat it. We can beat it if we stand together as a group and support each other through the tough times.